6-25

Back is still hurting. Not quite as bad, but still not pleasant. I’ve been horrible at getting in much of any kind of activity. Also had a migraine to deal with over the weekend…grrrr.

Okay, enough complaining. I did manage to get to the gym today. Did about 6 of the circuit machines, walked a mile on the treadmill at about 3 1/2 mph. Not sure if I’m able to go the rest of this week and I’m out of town next week, so…

 

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6-17

Went on a mission trip to Nashville, KY. Spent 5 days in over 90 degree temps working on a roof. We tore off the old, carried that to the dumpster, replaced a few sheets of deteriorated plywood, tore off the chimney and put on new shingles and all that. So needless to say I got far more exercise than normal. It felt good…even though it was stinkin’ hot!

Last night I went out and pulled a few weeds and planted a couple things that I had gotten as gifts. I used the hoe to work up a couple small beds and now my back is SCREAMING at me. I can hardly bend over…not a good thing with 3 little munchkins around. So, I didn’t do much today. Guess maybe I should get up and move around and see if that would help, but it really is painful. I’ve been trying to decide if it is a muscle issue or something else…I think something else. Anyway, enough complaining!

I was so hoping to at least lose a couple pounds while there, but no such luck. Still holding at about 195. Grrr!

Pedometer count was up for most of the week since we stayed on the 2nd floor of a church and did more walking just around there.

6-5

Been a busy week, but good too. I’ve gotten lots of cleaning done! Yay! I’ll have a clean house to come home to (after mission trip).

Doing okay eating, still need to be a bit more careful about portion sizes, but it’s getting better.

Weight: 194

Pedometer: 9067…wow, think that’s the first time it’s been that high. But I suppose that’s about right. Walked all over this house today cleaning and ran a couple errands this evening.

6-2

Got lots of cleaning done this am. I think it counted as some exercise. I worked up quite a sweat…lol! Did okay eating until we went to the China Buffet after Dave’s game. I ate way too much, trying to decide if it was less than usual or not. Not really sure, but I was quite full…but not quite overstuffed…so maybe not quite as much, but who cares? It was still TOO much. I feel like I’m becoming more aware of how much I eat and more aware of how full I feel. Now if I would just listen when my stomach says ENOUGH! Instead of listening to my mouth saying “mmmmm…so good…have some more”. Baby steps is definitely the way of things lately. I’m trying I guess, that’s more than I had been doing.

I also have to remember that this weight did not all hop on me at once and it isn’t going to fall off all at once either. It’s gonna take time to change habits and work on making new and healthier habits. One thing at a time doesn’t seem as overwhelming as trying to completely change everything all at once. And I as look back to where this blog started I do see some progress. Still doesn’t seem like much, but it’s progress and that’s what is important. I’ve limited the amount of pop I’m drinking. I’m becoming more aware of how much I’m eating. Those are both very important steps. And I can say that even when I don’t do very well at some of these things, I really haven’t felt discouraged. I just remind myself that these changes will take time and that it will be worth it in the end. I can’t go back and change what’s already done, so I just start from there and keep on going…. Why beat myself up? That just makes things worse. Focus on the things that are improving and keep working on those and then add some new challenges when I’m ready.

I can do this! I will do this! I’m tired of being overweight, but it’s not gonna change until I start making changes in what I’m doing. I want to feel better about myself (and I know that shouldn’t soley depend on weight, but it does play a big part in it right now), I want to be able to do things with my boys–go down slides, swing, etc–without worrying if I’ll fit or if I’ll break something.

So…the weight is a big thing, but more than that it should be about my health. With a family history of diabetes, heart problems, etc. I should be more than motivated to get this under control now. Plus, it doesn’t get any easier as I get older to lose weight.

So, there’s my motivational speech to myself I guess. Now if I can just stick to it and quit being so critical of myself. I need to keep all these things in mind and learn to accept myself as I am. My husband loves me, my boys love me, my family loves me…whether I’m thick or thin. What more could I ask for?

Well, guess that’s my book for this evening. Ha!

Pedometer: Approx. 7,000

6-1

Had family here for the weekend. And I also ended up with a mean old headache (migraine type of thing) that started Fri evening and lasted til this evening….UGH!

Fri, eating was ok I think. Had pizza for supper, but only had one piece of meatlover’s thin crust and 2 breadsticks. I was proud of myself for that. I normally would have stuffed myself. Sat, went shopping and felt pretty miserable. Ate a chicken fajita roll-up ate just over half and a few fries. I thought about getting broccoli, but my stomach felt kinda icky from the headache and broccoli sounded blech!

Today, not too bad. Had brownies and ice cream tonight, but didn’t overdo it like normal.

So, overall, I’m doing better about portion sizes and just trying to eat less in general. Still not very healthy I guess. Need to work on getting more fruits and vegetables and stuff like that. Drank more pop this weekend than I have in a while, but still doing well with that. I usually go at leat several days without any and then maybe have one. I poured myself some tonight at the swim party and it didn’t even taste good. Think I only ended up drinking a few sips of it.